holy shit, man. don't get me started on how the cowboys lost last night. they were up 13-0 in the middle of the 4th quarter, but two long bombs from mark brunell to santana moss gave the redskins two late touchdowns. what the fuck, man. i was so upset that i self-generated a panic attack and couldn't fall asleep until midnight, after having smoked 12 cigarettes. shit. *pukes*
fyi, bill parcells, the cowboys' coach, was 77-0 when leading in the 4th quarter when up by 13+ points. so it seemed like he wouldn't fuck it up when we were leading 13-0 headed into that final quarter. apparently, i was wrong. :( *RAAR*
so yeah, that was pretty depressing, but perhaps even more so is the fact that stanford lost to division I-AA uc davis in their football game on saturday. what the hell is up with that? we lose to DAVIS?! that is just shameful.
so it was a bad weekend of sports for me. i hope next weekend is better, when the cowboys face the niners at candlestick. but i am definitely jittery about it. depressing, that's all i can say.
so two weekends ago, i sent k2 a one-liner e-mail wishing her a happy 30th birthday. she replied last night, and i am glad that she was cordial. i can't say that i want to be good friends again, but civility among me and my ex's is definitely good news. :)
i am getting sick and tired of these panic attacks. my tics get worse, my body and brain feel electric, and worst of all, i can't escape by simply falling asleep. not being able to sleep is just a horrible situation to be in; lying down does not provide me the comfort that it usually does, and i am left with no ways to "escape." ick.
wow, it's thundering out there. i didn't expect rain in september. but it does smell nice out there... fresh and moist. hehe, moist, i like that word. moist!
i like it when a girl is moist. ha!
my back's been hurting lately. of course, i could go see my chiropractor, but i don't want to face him and his attempts to convince me to go on that zero-carb diet to help my tourette's. honestly, how is a no-carb diet going to fix my tics? i am highly skeptical. so instead, i'm avoiding him and just suffering through it with a bad back.
i haven't taken a dump today. i wonder what's up. i think i'm gonna go have a cigarette and try to induce some dumpage. laters!