day 3: unfun
Posted on Mon, February 8 2010 at 5:51 pm
today has not been fun. i kind of expected this, but being a workday, not smoking has been pretty tough.
there is so much routine built into my workday. from climbing the steps upon entering the building (i take a certain pattern with my left and right feet up the 54 steps, yes i have counted them) to having my 11am and 1:30pm pibb xtra’s, to my set smoking breaks, routines and habits make up a lot of my monday-friday regimen. so not smoking throws a huge monkeywrench into system that i’ve crafted for over 5 years here at this company.
i have a pretty short attention span most of the day, so i take a lot of breaks. so today, i still went outside as if i were taking a smoking break. however, i just paced around the smoking area without a cigarette and breathed the fresh air deeply in and out. however, after lunch, from the period of 2:30pm to now, i got really restless. i guess my hands, mouth and lungs got really itchy for something to do. i brought a tin of altoids in, but i haven’t been using it much. (i should.) i had an extra can of pibb, and that helped. i called alan up and chatted him for about 5 minutes.
anyways, i know that quitting is hard. everyone said that the first few weeks would be tough. so i’m just whining a bit. i’ll get through it, i know. i’m just being a bit of a drama queen. but yeah, it’s *not* easy. i’ll just have to power through it.
one of the warnings on the nicoderm CQ box was that the user might have some vivid dreams. no shit. last night, i dreamt that i was in a gondola of some sort, paddling my way through a parking lot in search of some high school friends. we were dressed up in suits on our way to a semi-formal dinner. and then, the dream shifted to me being in a nordstrom/macy’s, and i was looking at this cool fold-out metallic gadget, and i really wanted it, but then i looked at the price tag, and it was selling for something like $2,043. i seem to be remembering my dreams more easily. i’m curious as to what i’ll dream about tonight. (btw, i’m keeping my nicotine patch on when i’m sleeping, as they’re 24-hour patches.)
i am still happy that i got drunk on saturday. if i am able to find a designated driver, i’ll gladly drink more often. it’s funny, i was *so* hell-bent on getting buzzed. i had those three whiskeys, and i felt very little, and i got bummed out. and then, i was like, “fuck it, tim, get me a long island,” as if i was telling him to pull out the big guns. and i sucked down that motherfucker in like 10 minutes. it was awesome.
we celebrated a coworker’s birthday today. he turned 33 yesterday. damn, i always thought he was younger than me. he’s a pretty good designer/engineer. six of us went to korea house for their buffet. it wasn’t bad, but i only ate one plate. i am preparing for the weight gain by quitting smoking, although i think it’ll only start after i get off the patch.
oh, and i also liked the punxsutawney polamalu commercial during the super bowl. and some of the doritos ads were amusing.
how do celebrities have so much time to twitter? and some of them (like rainn wilson) post links all the time. do they have little to do during their days when they’re not filming? what a life!
i got my mortgage coupons over the weekend. they redesigned them. they’re no longer cheap and flimsy-looking. i paid about $14K in mortgage interest last year, so all of that is tax-deductive. woo-hoo! also, are the points (i paid 1.25 points) i paid with my loan tax deductible?
i feel a great sense of accomplishment when i drink so much water than my piss turns clear. it’s very satisfying. i’ve had a friend get kidneystones (two, actually) in the past, and that just freaks the shit out of me. i’d hate to have that happen to me, having to squeeze a 3mm sharp, jagged rock through my ureter, urethra, and out of my meatus. what a fucking nightmare. so i resolve every workday to drink as much water as i can, and ultimately to turn my urine into a clear liquid. weekends are bit tougher, but i’m going to try to do that same. after all, my fridge has a water dispenser, so it’s more due to laziness.
listening to wheatus right now.
if all the rumors are true, then my favorite girl on _the bachelor_ is leaving the show tonight before the rose ceremony. what a bummer. she is by far the most attractive girl on the show, and i like her attitude and personality the best. she doesn’t seem to have any emotional baggage, and she’s very cool. the only detraction that i see is that she’s obsessed with hating one of the other girls, and that’s a little catty, which is totally uncool. and, she likes the color yellow! or, at least, she has a yellow dress, and she looks really good in it. that dress would go well with my yellow wristwatch. when she leaves, i’m going to be a lot less interested in the show. ugh.
anyways, i’m still trying to meet up with jennie. she might be free tonight, but i don’t know if i have time. *sigh* matching schedules with people can be so hard sometimes. like, jay, alan and i are trying to schedule a lunar new year celebration (jay and i both love peking duck), but jay’s gone this week for a conference, and alan is gone next week for a company trip to hawaii. so what to do?
ok, i’m off.
